POST: 'Quietly' - an exchange filled with rage
What's It About?
Rivalry tensions that have been carried for years.
How does one confront the person who's affected you so much?
What'd I Experience?
The Irish Repertory Theatre... hmmm... what do I know about that?
Google maps... it's near my school! hehe :)
What do I know about the Irish? Little. The closest I have ever come to spending time with an Irish person was during a movie, the thing that stuck with me was their accent. Ohhh... what the heck - I was in love with it. Hearing it again was definitely pleasing. (Giggles)
But yeah, the play.
The tone of these men, I don't know... was it repelling or attracting? I guess I was undecided about that. Trying to understand the story was tough in the beginning as I kept on repeating every last word of a sentence in my head in an attempt to catch Irish accent... but I caught on.
There was Jimmy, a bold unapologetic man, past his fifties I would say. I imagined myself trying to tell him that and I could already see me being insulted for my "amazing discovery". He was not a stupid man. He was allegedly at the pub for drinks, while at the same time hatefully commenting on the soccer game Poland Vs. Ireland, screaming "Fu** Poland", yet living in the country. Was he always so pissed at the world? Robert, the bartender, was pretty comfortable with him, guess he already knew him pretty well. Jimmy expressed himself so intensely, like a rage ran within him. Pretty soon it becomes clear that he is waiting for someone as he starts getting impatient.
Ian walks into the pub and right away Jimmy stands. It was like watching one of those wild west movies when you have two cowboys ready to fire at each other. The way that Jimmy looked at Ian was pretty tense and I figured he was definitely the reason Jimmy was pissed. Being late turned out to be a part of the reason, but pretty soon (with insults used) it becomes clear that there is a story here that dates back more than 30 years. Of course, he hadn't been this pessimistic character all his life, but an event that took place during these men's teens was a turning point in their lives. Ian had thrown a bomb into a pub (the same location of the play), killing the six men in it. He had believed that they were IRA supporters, one being Jimmy's father. He was the figure that Jimmy looked up to - now, I understood his anger.
As soon as Ian tries to speak, he is confronted by Jimmy's fist. OUCH!!! I did not think these two men were capable of speaking, it felt it too real. But Robert seems to ease them a bit, enough to say why they had agreed to meet in the first place. Jimmy starts with his side of the story, maybe out of pride or wanting to put Ian in a shameful position.
It is long exchange and filled with rage. Too many attempts at justification from Ian, claiming that he was just a teenager. He tries apologizing so many times, but it was as if Jimmy didn't want to hear his words. He seemed to hurt as if he'd lost his father yesterday. I tried to put myself in his place, but I'm gunna guess that the pain cannot compare. I would think that with so many years having passed his reaction would've been different. A little calmer, maybe? But he was full of tension, unpredictable. The only thing I could hope for was peace between them. The truth is - nothing can change the past.
I thought about my family, and although maybe our problems don't touch tragic grounds like this, I wasn't oblivious to Jimmy's feeling of rage. I have witnessed them myself, and yes, sometimes it can be impossibly hard to accept an apology. And if it was hard to accept one from someone we barely know, imagine a family member. Things definitely aren't the same. The situation is forgiven but not forgotten, but as a result a transformation is possible.